October 31, 2009

and whatever it takes,

whatever mistakes we make

unfortunately they stayed

they are the habits we’ll break

they are the habits we’ll break

i’ve learned what it means

to still stay strong for those few

to inspire

you called me up and i said things are fine

and its been awhile since you’ve been on my mind

i hoped for best you asked for advice

and ill tell you how i feel

and i even stayed here for awhile

its the mistakes i couldn’t take

those mistakes i could take

this is what we must do.

and whatever it takes,

whatever mistakes we make

unfortunately they stayed

they are the habits we’ll break

they are the habits we’ll break

im still here so if you have anything to ask

believe me ill be here to listen

thats all we need to do, take a step back and listen

October 31, 2009

untitled.

why does it always come down to this

another time that we will miss

what to think, that there’ll be no one around?

you’re the last thing I’d leave with no middle ground

i was here for you and i wouldnt want

you think that I’m already gone

what is happening?

so stop charades

another game of picture the ordinary

off and on all day long I’m trying not to lose my heart

so tell me how i couldn’t live a single day without you on my mind

blank stares, sideways smiles

but all along its was just for awhile

what’s old is new and what we believe is true

leaving those to imagine

a world anew

so stop charades

another game of picture the ordinary

off and on all day long I’m trying not to lose my heart

so stop charades

cause this could go on for days

another game of picture the ordinary

off and on all day long I’m trying not to lose my heart

blank stares, sideways smiles

leaving those to imagine

a world anew

and when times are hard,

stand tall

be proud

this was all made for you

take this as just looking ahead

the interests in harmonizing

understanding how to care

that is what lasts forever

October 31, 2009

yes.

I think there’s something miraculous happening

October 20, 2009

worlds apart, we’re so cold, we’re so cold

have we’ve been talking circles

no we’ve been talking about a curse

i hate to say it but I’m surviving

don’t you want to get to me so bad

get to me so bad

well I’ve been good, yes I’ve tried my hardest to do everything i can

i look to make those who i love proud

sometimes holding my head in my hands

who do i appear to be?

who do i appear to be?

before you assume make sure you  can handle the truths

don’t act like you know what’s out there

be honest about what your saving?

rhythms the passion and the conductors missing

guess ill be ordinary for a day

ordinary for a day

have we’ve been talking circles

no we’ve been talking about a curse

I hate to say it but I’m surviving

don’t you want to get to me so bad

get to me so bad

what is the driving force?

what is the driving force?

why would you, talk in poems and poets?

full of mixed up prophets

be strong believe in yourself

be strong believe in yourself

September 30, 2009

we’re stronger, we’re brand new, and truly ambitious.

and we know

what we got

so we gotta’ get goin’

we gotta’ get showin’

that were willing

to take the next train

outa here.

were gone.

conspiracies keep telling me that we are at faults, but this isn’t the end of the world no its just the beginning. this is the news we tackle. out there lost and misunderstood? were gracious yes we are, dont let the darkness destroy the light.

dont let the darkness destroy the light.

and we know

what we got

so we gotta’ get goin’

we gotta’ get showin’

that were willing

to take the next train

outa here.

were gone.

successful, older, and full of hope.

September 24, 2009

march, match, martyr (left foot first).

honestly, honesty has to be our best friend

we can’t condone another meaningless trend

if those should fall

we pray for their safety

that’s all we can do

that’s all we can do

rumors inflict, practicality turns into reality

I’ve seen it happen and it still does

and those unborn are patiently waiting for

the taste of new traditions, an identity to share among dedicated followers.

who said never to be yourself

that’s all we want from you

stop reading into lyrics because look what they have done to you

stop idolizing words its unsafe to be a victim to subliminal messaging

we want your excitement were in dire need of your trust

the rhythm is what should attract

order order in the court

we have a strong case to be made

momentarily there’s an action that needs to be sought

and outside is waiting the parade

full of flashing lights and unsynchronized ambitions

be strong and your spirit will carry on,

it’s too early to give in

march, match, martyr

and if you dont know it youve already been

more then an identity

you are yourself

you are yourself

honestly, honesty has to be our best friend

we can’t condone another meaningless trend

if those should fall

we pray for their safety

that’s all we can do

that’s all we can do

September 22, 2009

we leave on your “go” (oh! captain, my captain).

watch as i still lead,

im not being selfish,

but most times the decisions are up to me.

i’ve lived this position and am still well aware of its possibilities

why would i stop now?

in these words there is a meaning,

in these whitty lines, yes there’s feeling

thoes who have yet to understand just dance

and clap thoes hands cause the applause from the cast

is exactly what is desired

dont run, dont run

where’s the fun, where’s the fun?

you have to make scene alive, ….its only up to you

sometimes i think we’re right back where we’ve started

smarter now? the potential is screaming with excitment

i cant but breakdown sometimes and open my arms,

im starving for someone to hold.

whatch as i still lead,

im not being selfish,

but most times the decisions are up to me.

i’ve lived this position and am still well aware of its possibilities

why would i stop now?

and i cant stop, no i cant stop telling myself

dont run, dont run

where’s the fun, where’s the fun?

you have to make this scene alive, ….its only up to you

i cant but breakdown sometimes and open my arms,

im starving for someone to hold.

im starving for someone to hold.

September 17, 2009

her name was murder but she makes me feel alive.

and i already

dont want to see you go

but i dont think ive even seen

your face in the longest time

so do i really know what im missing?

am i a fool to be waiting this long?

what if

you keep the phone on speaker

around the house you can walk

we can pretend im by your side

i swear ill listen if you want to talk

i hear i can see your face

with just a click

but i dont think thats enough

i hear there is a train that runs right by your house

i wish i could afford the trip…

i want to feel the breath from your whispers while we’re trying to fall asleep

i want to feel your touch, even if it’s a tap on the shoulder

the littlest things can make me smile

and just hearing your voice can do for now

and i already

dont want to see you go

but i dont think ive even seen

your face in the longest time

so do i really know what im missing?

am i a fool to be waiting this long?

her name was murder but she makes me feel alive

its almost worse then torture but id go through the worse for you 

her name was murder

i listen for cars hoping its your arrival

its what helps me fall asleep

i’ve never crushed this hard no not in weeks

but years.

the littlest things can make me smile,

and just hearing your voice can do for now.

there isnt a battle i wouldn’t enter for you

there isnt a person that would stand in my way

no there isnt a battle i wouldn’t enter for you

i know my friends have my back there isnt a person that would stand in our way,

were like hornets we sting with the best of them.

and this isnt me calling you out

this is me just making my point,

you deserve the world and more.

her name was murder but she makes me feel alive

its almost worse then torture but id go through the worse for you 

her name was murder and i love it when she smiles.

September 17, 2009

meridith i wish you were home.

i have to be honest, i don’t even know who you are.

you’ve got me running in circles but that doesn’t matter to me at all

i told you id drive for hours, and that’s exactly what i did.

i told you i would cross the world to see you, and that exactly what i did.

i have to be honest, i don’t even know who you are.

Just be yourself, i want to see what your all about.

if it was up to me youd be in my arms tonight

miles and miles seperate us

but that isnt something i focus on.

us being together, holding eachother, waiting for the sun rise.

miles and miles seperate us

but that isnt something i focus on.

miles and miles seperate us

but that isnt something i focus on.

miles and miles tear me apart.

but that isnt somethign that i focus on.

August 30, 2009

Sincerely to anyone.

How do you want me to act, when i cant control myself when your around. did you know your the first person to ever make me laugh without saying a single word. we’ve met several times before but i dont think we’ve come properley aquainted.

I want to go back to when we could laugh and the innosence was bliss, this is a side note but anything you did with your hair looked great. Im an addict, yeah, i hate to admit, but when you said that im the only one youd want in your life, i hope you know i want that too.

Id push the cart at the gorcery store, and i know youd make dinner tonight creative so the food you can choose. another side note: Im always up for something new as long as its prepared by me and you. Your the angel ive always prayed for, and beautiful isnt even a comparison when talking about your eyes. I love oceans and thats what they remind me of. deep blue oceans.

Dont be shy because i love everything about you, and i really do hope you feel the same. im sorry for how stubborn ive been lately im just afraid of losing you, but i know when i get home tonight youll tell me you dont ever want me to go and i swear that im here to stay.

and ill leave you this to whomever you may be leave a number, return to sender and ill end it, sincerely to anyone.